Tring to be better

I want really to ask my friends ;
eih 2li beyza3alko meni 3ashan abatalo?
begad ana nefsi ma7adesh abadan yez3al meni,
Be a real friend and please tell me;
eih 2li momken akon ba3melo we beydaye2ko
haga ba7'od bali menha aw la2 ,we law 7aga tafha 2oloha bardo.......