Supposed to be

Today is my final seminar.
So it is supposed to be the most important day for me this year and I want to write about it.
i don't want to write because I am happy with it but This is the FINAL.

My group was supposed to be the 7th group, but actually we entered instead of the 3rd!!
We went to the hall to know whose turn is it, and were surprised by a man calling the 7th group.
HOW, WHEN, WHERE, WHO!!! ....really I don't know.

The best(worst) things are that the presentation wasn't completely finished, one of my team members wasn't with us and was supposed to start the presentation.

We told the dr that we are supposed to begin at 12 pm, he told us to go and do our seminar with the one who told us so OR start now.
Actually it was only one option .. to start now..
I won't talk about the details, but I think we dealt with the situation.

The bad points that I want others to benefit from is
to be totally ready for ur presentation a day before ur seminar.
Every member can talk about others' parts in the presentation.
Your documentation must be perfect because there are some drs that have nothing to do except looking at ur faults in it.
Try to make a presentation with max time 20 mins coz drs have no time to hear u :S

I hoped this day would be a happy memory to remember through my whole life, but "قدر الله وما شاء فعل "

Last day studying

Since long time, I didn't write anything in my blog ..so I thought about writing today to read later and remember my feelings on that special day(Last day studying for the last exam)..


I am feeling about how am I supposed to feel :D

Happy or Sad...

Happy because of finishing studying,
coz there is no more tense of 5 projects supposed to be delivered in one week,
nor exams in subjects you know nothing about and not able to understand,
nor losing a friend due to working with each others was not a good idea,
and no longer boring lectures and sections.

Or Sad coz I am leaving sweet memories, great friends, and leaving a place you know well and going to another where you don't know anyone, anything ,will you be comfortable or not??

At the beginning of this year, I was dreaming of that moment, to be free and leave that college which was a great source of stress and sadness to me, but suddenly I found that this year was the best in everything, I knew new lovely friends who I love and will miss so much(they were as sisters to me, we spent sad and happy moments together and without them my life in that college would be a nightmare), and I spent sweet moments of laughing, joking and taking photos :D

And the sad moments turned to be a representation for things changed a lot in my personality. I think it taught me a lot.

We really don't know how much we love someone or something except when we leave them. And now I can say that I love my college and my friends sooo much :)

Hoping that my new life will be better isA. and none of my friends forget me as I won't forget them, and to reunion again and again.

Try to follow :)

Your Choice

When you are choosing between different things..what is your way of thinking???
Do you think what is the most thing you like?
OR what will make you benefit more?
OR what is the best of the bad ones?.. which means that you don't like them all but you have to choose..
OR you choose the thing that all around you are encouraging you to choose?.. you choose the thing that has a great reputation..
u must try to choose what u feel confortable with or what u think u can do great effort in or try to write each advantages and disadvantages to know which is better.

What if you don't feel that you care about one of the choices more than others .. and you want to pray "aste7'ara" ... What is the thing that you are going to say in your "aste7'ara"?

And if you don't care about any of your choices.. Does that mean you are not an ambitious person?

And if you are not ambitious.. Does that counts a bad point in your character?
Does everyone must be ambitious or live for the day...
I don't mean a person with no goals in his life.. but a person with simple goals .. finishes one then thinks of the next.. his goals is not easy to do but he is not looking forward to a very far goal.

This makes me thinks of the definition of ambitious.. Does it means always thinking of tomorrow and how to be better? or wants the best for his career with no matter of thinking of the very far goals..

Or the person thinking of the far goals is called a dreamer, not an ambitious.
Really don't know.........

If my words is not obvious..I will clear it in one but long question..
"In high school ,do you think of getting high marks ,then when you get it you think of the college you want?....OR...You think of the college you want then you try to get high marks?....OR nothing is better both are good and lead to the same future"

10 PRINCIPLES

Stop and ask yourself today, "How do I really feel about myself?"

Before you answer read these ten principles. Better yet, keep them before you daily.

(1) Never think or speak negatively about yourself; that puts you in disagreement with God.

(2) Meditate on your God-given strengths and learn to encourage yourself, for much of the time nobody else will.

(3) Don't compare yourself to anybody else. You're unique, one of a kind, an original. So don't settle for being a copy.

(4) Focus on your potential, not your limitations. Remember, Good lives in you!

(5) Find what you like to do, do well, and strive to do it with excellence.

(6) Have the courage to be different. Be a God pleaser, not a people pleaser.

(7) Learn to handle criticism. Let it develop you instead of discourage you

(8) Determine your own worth instead of letting others do it for you. They'll short-change you!

(9) Keep your shortcomings in perspective - you're still a work in progress.

(10) Focus daily on your greatest source of confidence - the Giant who lives in you!

Strange about Gmail

One day my friend told me to send her a mail on Gmail .This mail contains an "exe" file coz it is a c# application ..The strange that it wasn't send and a message box appeared saying "The file contains EXE file ..for security reasons it won't be sent"..

While on the other hand my friends send me exe files on my Gmail..

What do u think is the problem???

Talking about others

The worst habit is talking about others, but I am not talking now about saying the good things of them, I am talking about the bad side.
X talks about Y from his back especially if X is upset from Y .But the worst thing is that X doesn't talk only about someone but he is talking about his friend!!!

The REALLY great thing that i knew from a short period of time is....

1-That whom u talk about can be also talking about u and u don't have the right to be upset as u do the same to him.....

2-Everyone u talk about from his back ,the day will come and he knows that u were talking about .

Try to think of it for a while ... ur friend who is with u most of the time talking,sharing situations and joking once he got upset from u, goes to talk about u to others...sooo hurting;
Everyone talks about others should be shy from himself.

What should makes us stop that is to know that Allah is looking at us and that person is taking from our 7asanat.

And it is better not to talk About Y but to talk TO that Y..
but this is in case that Y doesn't know that he upsets u..

While in the other case u should pray God to forget about what is said about u and forgive him for the sake of God.

I don't say that I don't talk about anyone but I am writing to remind myself and others.

My 1st Seminar :)

El 7amd ll Allah , our 1st seminar is finished. The day was really great .We heard great feedback that made us think of the great responsibility of implementing it not only making presentations :D

Starting from the beginning of the day , my team and I went to college so early to rehearse in front of our T.A. which was sth. so important that made us ready and open to questions from the Drs except for Dr Hashem's questions :D as no one can expect it. Then Waleed (who brought us the idea of the project) came to see the last version of our presentation after the changes. And we went to see the groups whose seminars are before us to take idea about what is going on there.

And e7l we found a group that Dr Hashem (kan biet7anhom as2ela)..... I was so worried.

Then our turn... Waleed came with Dr Hamad and a video camera :D..ya7arakat

w Dr Hashem 3agabo al background beta3et al laptop w 2alena warohaly lama te7'alaso :D

we started speaking , Dr Hashem was interrupting us at first but Noha told him " mesh 3ayzen ne7ra2 al slides :D " so he stopped ,called someone on phone and went out.

e7l finished then we took photos de kesa tanya ba2a(mesh 3ayza a7ky 3nha now :D:D)

bs the 1st is done e7l 3o2bal al final yarab.

Take the time....

To LOVE..
It is the secret of eternal youth.

To LAUGH..
It is the music of the heart.

To CRY..
It is the sign of large heart.

To READ..
It is the source of knowledge.

To HEAR..
It is the power of intelligence.

To THINK..
It is the key to success.

To PLAY..
It is the freshness of childhood.

To DREAM..
It is the breath of happiness.

To LIVE..
Coz time passes so quickly ..and never returns..

Need something new

When u feel not ease ,hating what u r doing ,and feeling that u don't like to give ,then u have to change.

you can change yourself,what u r doing,what u r thinking about,people u r around(if they r bad ones)but u know you can't change all around u.

But really i don't know what I really have to change...

I changed a lot in myself but feeling that I have to change more,
I can't change what I am doing as this is my college,my courses that i have no other choices to do,
I tried a to change some people around me but I failed e7l,but I think this year I love all around me(I think that God is gifting me).
Therefore,I think I have to change what i am thinking about...ok

What ba2a am I thinking about :
1-My college(I want to start studying coz midterm is becoming nearer..and the project"rabena yostor");
2-My Life(I want to drive,learn more things and be a good muslim);
3-My friends(they are changing with huge rate and I really want to know WHO ARE MY FRIENDS?)

mmm...
All are RESPONSIBILITIES;
No one can live without it,and only bad ones(who has meaningless life) who try to leave it to others.

So what do u think I can change??!!

What I have to do now is to Smile a very big large Family-size SMILE to life and begin carrying out my responsibilities and have them done to feel the joy of success "w Allah hwa al mosta3an".

Know where to go...

Bored

When u find yourself sitting at home with your parents but u still feel lonely...
When u have a lot to do .. but you don't want to do anything from them ...
When go to the fridge to search for anything to eat while you are not feeling hungry ,
and when u find something you leave it and go.
When u like to sit in the balcony and look at the sky ..doing nothing but thinking about everything till u feel that your brain can't stop it..

That is is what I feel now ... it is a feeling of getting bored .I don't know if I am bored from what happening or bored from myself or bored from what ,

But I feel that I want to go out , to walk through the streets in the open air alone till I feel relief then i can come back home..but as I am a girl I can't do it at that hours :(

When sometimes I feel that feeling and talk to my mum she tells me to think about what gifts Allah gave me..and I will find them lots and then i feel satisfied and never bored..but u know when you feel bored u don't think that way.

Lessons learnt in FCIS

1. Self Study is a must.
2. Love what u study to do your best in it.
3. Don't let your studies make you forget yourself ,your friends or your health.
4. Make many friends coz you are in need to that.
5. You can expect anything to happen.
6. Whatever happen don't think it is the worst to happen.
7. It is so easy to wake up all night and still u don't finish what u have to do.

Worst Situations :S

• Doing to others things that u don't like it to be done to you.
• Being upset from others coz they didn't do what you expect them to , while u never do it before to them.
• Seeing your friends upset from each others and u don't try to make any step to make them return as they are.
• Not concentrating or not letting the one speaking to you to finish his words till the end.
• Helping people that you don't know well, while u don't help people close from you.
• Saving time for your friends to see or anything, while your parents who wants to sit with u ,c that u are always occupied.
• Trying to say or do bad things to ur friend just to get her attention ,while there are better things to do it.
• Blaming others for something while you are the reason of it.

Life before and after "Google" :D

Life Before....

• If you don't understand a meaning of a word while studying,you have to look it up in the dictionary, and sometimes you don't find it 'bardo'.
• If you are asked about writing in a topic , you start to go to the libraries to find a book talking about this topic, and sometimes you are bored of reading it but you have to write it down, coz some books you can not photocopy it.
• If something you heard that you don't understand its meaning ,to know it you have to ask your friends but you won't get any benefit or you have to ask your parents who might be forgetting that issue or don't know it.
• If something is going into your mind ,you are thinking about and want to know more about, it would be very difficult to get what you want to know.
• If you want to learn more about something,you would go to take courses or buy lots of books..God be with you;)

Life After...

• You can check the meaning of a word that you don't understand.
• If you are asked about writing in a topic ,you can search for it and print it.(but this won't be useful ..anyway you have done what is asked from u).
• Anything is going into your mind ,you can get it easily.
• Learning will be easier than before no effort in going here and there,Information is easy to get.
• The most important point is searching for entertainments..which is funny and interesting ;)

Just feeling the importance of Google..no more :D

"A FOOL"

This is life.
I will explain it in five.
First, you have to live it,
with its pain and fun.
Coz you must accept it.
Yeah, now or then.

Second, try to care
for only those who care.
Coz you won’t bare
to feel being hurt.

Third, you must fight
To do what is right!!
Or you will be near
From doing what I fear…

Forth, it is so easy
to feel not easy.
You also can feel happiness,
but this will stay for nonsense.

Fifth and the last,
you will never last.
And through your life
you will understand
things that you won’t stand.
So try to keep cool
And live like a fool.

Keep yourself busy

Sometimes I wonder if I am a free person , doing nothing ..how would I feel ?...Life will be too comfortable...just relaxing... :)

But when I thought about it deeply especially after I heard someone saying in front of me "thanks God for being busy"... I found that this person is right in what he said.

When you are busy you won't think about trivial things ,or about what others do and say,

you won't be sad if you don't talk to one of your friends for a long time,

you won't do what makes God upset from you, coz you are so busy to do such things.

So you won't bother yourelf.

But at the end, I don't think it is a good idea to be busy for your whole life,coz you also have to take some rest..."إن لبدنك عليك حق", as not to cut your relations with your family and friends..(you should have time to see them) , and sure their must be time to worship God.

I think keeping yourelf busy will make you relax but from inside...

“Kol ta27’era w feha 7’er”

I always think why people are saying this quote. But after things happened to me in the last two weeks, I was convinced with it.

The 1st situation:
It was our AI exam ”natural stupidity” :D as we call it. While I was going to our exam’s location, I met a friend on my way who told me sections from 7 to 12 will have their exam delayed after an hour and a half. As I am from section 12 “one of the luckiest sections" I was sooo nervous .I went there to argue with the Dr as we have 2 exams the next day, and we have to go home early to study for them. But as usual nothing was done for us. But a special friend to me who is from the first sections gave me some papers with written notes about the lectures. Absolutely ,I wasn’t going to study coz I was so annoyed, but after I took these papers I studied from them while waiting. But e7l thanx God and thanx my friend ,reading these notes was sth very helpful to me in the exam. So delaying our section’s exam was a good thing not a bad one as I thought first.

The 2nd situation:
I was having a lecture at 9 am.I was out from home at 8:15, but while I was on my way to the bus station I remembered that I forgot sth important at home .I was obliged to go back to get it but I will be late on the lecture.I felt somehow anxious but went back and when I was going down stairs again I found my cousin going to her college at the same time. I was missing her so much .So,we went together In the CTA and talked.And about the lecture I was late on it for about 15 minutes, but no problem our Dr. began after I came. Thanx God for making me late.

You might think that the 2nd situation is not important being late in it.But if you were in my situation and missing a person so much you will be grateful.

I think if you thought while being late in this quote , you will be so grateful to God :)

My friends' categories

Business_is_Business Friends: They are a kind of friend who love you and like to talk to you coz they are your friends ,but once they need something related to their "masla7a" they forget about their friends at all.
To be more obvious I will give an example; If you are saying that you want both to understand sth from a person and she saw that person when you are not there she goes to understand alone although she can call her friend ,and can see this person another time..(This is a small example for many ones).

Acting Friends: They are a kind of friend who also love you and care for you too much which is a good thing,but when she does sth annoying to you she begins acting as I feel myself. I don't know why I feel this but I think she is saying things not coming from her heart,only saying this just not to make me sad , and as I feel it is not from her heart I don't feel what she says and feel that I am more annoyed. I really don't want her to act, just say what she feels or say nothing.

Forgetting Friends: This kind of friend sometimes forgets that her friend needs care from her, needs to share her annoyings ,her happiness, she won't always give without taking, and won't always hear you without talking to you.

Comforting Friends: They try not to make me upset from them .They are always hearing me when I want to talk ,when I am annoyed trying to comfort me , and although sometimes what I say they feel that it is sth not annoying they respect my feelings without telling me that I am exaggerating.

Fate Friends: People whom you become a friend to by fate, e.g. you see each others every day, sit and talk. And you might be not liking the same things or not having the same interests, but you became friends and will continue isA.

Funny Friends: They can't be called friends, coz our relation is just joking and kidding with each others no more .But, I called them my friends coz I love them and want to be their friend not just a person to joke with.

I love those six kinds of friends. And I am always here to hear them and share their feelings.

Note: Some of my friends are included in more than one category.

I only wrote this post coz I wanted to narrate annoying situations happened to me, and I thought if I say it that way, it will be better.

A Poem

I don't know the poet but I liked it.

"Don't Quit "

When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill;
When the funds are low, and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but have to sigh;
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but do not quit.

Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you can never tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit-
It's when things go wrong that you must not quit.

I hope I can write poems :)